messed up.

today my head has been all over the place. well to be honest i have been at work most of the day which has made things much easier because i haven't really thought about him. i made a decision last night which should make me much happier. but somehow i just end up torturing myself thinking about him. when in reality he just isnt worth it. i wish i never met him, then i wouldnt be having any problems what-so-ever.
anyway, enough about that. hope to speak again tomorrow :)

rainy days.

today i woke up to the sound of someone walking into my room. typical. i thought i was going to have a decent lie-in, NO. it was my mum wanting to borrow MY hair dryer, i dont know why she couldnt of just used her own. anyway, i didnt really sleep much after that. which was good really because i was late for going into town to see some friends. but i still stayed in bed till about 12 lol. but the electric had been cut off so i decided to read, haha i know right me? read? yes lol. ive started reading anne franks diary, and to be honest im really enjoying it. so yeah, because the electric was off i couldnt get a hot shower, i had to have a cold one. i hated every minute of it. anyway, yada yada yada i managed to get into town to meet my friends, it was his birthday today so of course i wished him happy birthday. :) i had a pretty good time in town, apart from a few boring parts it was all good. fo sure.

too long.

right ive been meaning to write this for too long now. ive missed getting my thoughts down on e-paper. its a good way to stop me from going insane in my own mind. dont you ever have those days? where you just feel like you are going to explode, just because of all those thoughts going through your head. like when you cant even get a good night sleep because your brain just doesnt want to shut down. anyway, im starting to blabble.
okay.
so since the last time i wrote on here nothing really has happened.. im still working, still at college, still single.
to be honest ive kinda just given up with men. they are just a waste of time at the moment for me. dont worry im not becoming one of those mad lesbians craving boobs. even though boobs to excite me, just a little bit. ;)
anyway, my brain has just gone blank.. so i will leave this for the moment.
love you all.

doesnt time fly.

right, its about bloody time i wrote another one of these little babies <3>well not much has really happened since i last wrote the last one.. just kinda living everyday as it comes to me i guess.