you say i love you boy, but i know you lie.

I haven't written I blog in a while. It's funny how you just get out of the habit of doing something. So I really need to get back into the habit. It's nice to just write stuff about you're life knowing that no one is going to read it.. or that you know of.. its kind of a release I guess. Well what's happened since I last wrote a blog? Well I've got a new phone, yes I will miss the blackberry dearly but it was time to move on. So now I have the htc desire, and im in love. It's just pure loveliness. What else? Erm nothing really lol oh how boring my life is lol. Peace.

its been a while - staind

cant get this song out of my head.



It's been a while
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been a while
Since I first saw you
It's been a while
since i could stand on my own two feet again
and it's been a while
since i could call you
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

It's been a while
since i could say that i wasn't addicted and
It's been a while
Since I could say I love myself as well and
It's been a while
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like i always do
It's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when i'm with you
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must i feel this way?
just make this go away
just one more peaceful day

Its been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
and it's been awhile
since i said i'm sorry
It's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
It's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
I know it's me i cannot blame this on my father
he did the best he could for me

It's been a while
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been a while since i said i'm sorry

i have one extreme headache.

so yeah like the title says, i have a really bad headache. so i wont be on here for long. plus i only got like 5 hours sleep last night so that might add to it. okay my head hurts so im going to stop here.

love the soldier, hate the war.

sitting in digital art and design i decided to write something on here. mainly because i was bored and i needed something to do. so this is it. today has been a good day so far. im really enjoying digital art & design because it makes you think about colour.
whats your favourite colour you ask me? & i will literally punch you in the face. its not because i hate you. its because that is the worst question in the world.
nothing really has been happening lately, been pretty boring. mainly just going to college, going to work, seeing friends & killing people on the xbox. yep, thats all that happens in my life at the moment.
today gemma got a kiss & a hug off boner boy. i havent spoke about him before, but hes a kid in our college that gets a boner everytime he hugs a girl. oh dear me.
im really missing talking to someone at the moment. & i shouldnt because he was really not very nice to me a couple of months back but.. i miss it. i miss him. & i miss our stupid conversations. someone i know has said he is only playing mind games with me, which i know is probably true. but i dont mind. ive leant not to let that stuff get to me anymore. otherwise i would have probably killed myself by now.
OMG i go to alton towers next wednesday & i am actually so excited. :D:D:D
WOOOO.

life, love & lies.

the past few days havent been my best, and i dont really know what has been going on with myself. but hopefully i will snap out of this mood soon. im sure i will. well, i have snapped out of it but you know what i mean. just been a funny few days where i have made arguments with people and said some things i didnt mean.
but oh my gosh, im going to alton towers soon, eee im excited :D

you had time to waste. i had time to kill.

i have now discovered that i cannot concentrate on writing this blog while i have music blaring into my earholes, so out the earphones come. ah thats better.
woke up today really really early, and yes i was wide awake. i really couldnt get to sleep no matter how hard i tried. so i just kinda listened to music that i hoped would try and send me to sleep. it didnt. so then i decided to watch a film. WHEYHEY that did the trick. until i nearly overslept to get to work for one. had a pretty weird day at work. it was boringly quiet. i thought i was actually going to fall asleep. it was shit. so yeah thats basically what ive done all day. i hope i have a better day at college tomorrow. otherwise i will kill myself. kidding.

sexbox.

i thought i was never going to make it out of bed today. i was actually so tired. and i swear that my bed is so much more comfy in the morning once ive slept in it than the night before. is that weird?
i had some really strange dreams while i was sleeping, and i seem to remember every single one of them. which again is strange. i was explain them because they are kinda silly and weird but nevermind.
today has been a good day at work, and it went pretty quickly. but today a girl called chloe left, it was a shame because she is absolutely lovely & has been a real help to me while i have been there. anyway life does go on.
so got home, played cod. died alot. and killed alot of people. but its been good anyhow.
love.