calm down, its not like youre dead.

you know that feeling where things just make you smile. like that tmobile dance advert for instance, that advert always seems to bring a smile to my face and gives me that funny feeling in my stomach. i find myself with a tear in my eye and a smile on my face at the same time. only if everyone could come together & treat everyone with a bit of respect.
so today i had a day off work (im normally working wednesday), so i was like YEAH. went to town with my friend gemma today. gosh i love that girl. she makes me laugh when im at my lowest. truly joined at the hip. i went to the opticians today because in february i broke my glasses beyond repair.. so anyway i realised that i hadnt been for an eye test since 2008 so yeah i was definitely due a check. & some new glasses for that matter. i also went to the doctors this morning which was just for something pretty minor. eczema to be frank. yeah i know dry skin, lovely. but that really was about it for the day.. didnt really do much else. oh apart from i did some art work, so i was pleased that i actually made the effort to get all my arty stuff out (because there is so much of it) the reason why i sometimes cant be bothered to get it out is cuz there is so much to pack away at the end of it all. suddenly cant think of anything to write. nuff said.

while watching sex and the city.

i finally finished the essay today & by lunch time it got handed in. oh i was actually really pleased. another weight off my shoulders. so today was a pretty chilly one. and just one of those average days where nothing goes amazingly right, or wrong. today we had so fill in some form for college today, asking whether we wanted to go into the second year and if we wanted to carry on into university. & this got me thinking about what i wanted to do with my life. of course i said yes to carrying on into the second year, because who wouldnt.. how silly would that be when they are going to read these things. & then i said no, i didnt want to go to university. because i had other career options in mind. i really didnt like highschool even though i got pretty decent grades, had lots of friends and got on well with teachers.. i just didnt like the environment & the pressure that was put on us. not to say college doesnt put pressure, but after all they are only trying to help. but its a different kind of environment. you are treated more like adults obviously, but its just different. so after highschool i just wanted to take this time to relax and think about what i really wanted to do with my life. and then next year start really working hard to get where i want to be. and you may laugh. but my goal is to be in the raf. something ive always thought about doing. and im really going to push myself to do it. some people may think im silly and some people say 'oh but you will change your mind'. my mind hasnt changed in years now. so why suddenly now? exactly. yes i have a job and college and great friends. but its what i want to do. so there is nothing that will hold me back. haha i dont even have the boyfriend trouble, so that makes it easier.
so, i dont think we have a government yet. does this mean we can run the country ourselfs.. haha to be honest i think we would do a much better job.
peace.

just a quickie.

so im in the middle of writing an essay for college. i havent written one for about a year, which was when i was doing my gcse's. i hate them with a passion. i dont really see the point in writing an essay about art. GAH. and the worst thing is.. this essay is only 500 words, not like them 7000 uni ones. i think i would actually die if i had to do one of those :/ i wish writing an essay was as easy as writing a blog. even though i havent done one for a while. BAD. so whats been happening while i havent been here? gordon brown stands down. i dont know whether to be pleased or what.. i dont really care in all fairness. what else? oh yeah im going to alton towers in a couple of weeks. AHHHHHH :D ive been like 3 times before, and yet i still cant wait to get on those rides and poop myself. i just hope noone throws up. that would be dirty. and a complete mess. im just not looking forward to the 3 hour car journey. ipod will definitely needed :) anything else? oh yeah.. why are men so god damn confusing? would someone please answer that question for me because it is playing on my mind. i wont go into detail about what happened but a while back someone wasnt very nice to me, then thinks its acceptable to send me a message over facebook like nothing happened. how? why? i really should be writing this bleeding essay. i think i might watch a film. after the essay of course.
someone today got me thinking about karma, which i havent really thought about in great depth before.. but it really has got me thinking. what goes around comes around right? yeah i suppose so, be nice and people will be nice to you. oh i dont know. what about 'does everything happen for a reason?' i think so.. now that i believe. we dont just walk around doing random things. they do happen for a reason. why we meet different people and do different things..
BORED.
done.

gahh.

i havent blogged for a while now.. really getting out of the habit which is bad! :(

oh you don't mean nothing at all to me.

i havent written here for a while now. well it seems like a while, tbh im really not that sure.
so whats been happening? er not much tbh.
well excited about next month. off to alton towers baby. been like 3 times before, but who doesnt get excited about going to a place like that ;) its gunna be good.
x

digital art and design.

started a new blog today about the art work im doing at college :)
nuff said.
safe.

make damn sure.

soooooo.
infact ive really enjoyed today. had a pretty good day at work. i think ive practically run out of money now though and i dont get paid for another week or so.. this is going to be fun.
im feeling quite tired this evening, im not quite sure why. maybe just had a busy day.
i havent spoke to him. cant be arsed.
erm.. so yeah just a quick one.


:D
oh yes, and i need to stop watching the hangover. i seem to know every line. but youve gotta love lesie chow. cor.
i really need to update my ipod.
i really need to tidy my room.
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