O.M.G

im loving ushers song atm. <3

so yeah, just a random blog for the day. had my mate gemma round last night, corr she dont have make me laugh. so its 1am and a funny thought popped into her head and i swear down she didnt stop laughing for about 5 minutes. i dont think ive ever laughed that hard at someone else laughing, lol.
so today i woke up to the sound of a drill hammer outside, wondering what it was half asleep i realised it was actually coming from the builders that are working at our house. anyway i was slightly pissed off, and im pretty sure that everyone in my street was pissed off at us as well. i have to say it was 8:45 and it was soooooo noisy so yeah they do kinda have a point at being pissed off at us.
when i finally decided to get my lazy arse out of bed and get dressed i ventured of into town.. paid in a check, and got my daily kick of starbucks, this is bad right.. but they actually know my order before ive even got to the counter or even said anything to them. i think a couple of weeks ago i went in everyday.. this maybe why they seem to know me so well. but they are actually so friendly in there and i practically know them by name now, i love it.
ahhh him. im not evening going to mention him today, because he is not worth the words that i would like to say. plus its a tad inappropriate to mention it on here. eaaaaak. hes cool though. sort of. kind of contradicting myself there. but i kinda hate him but at the same time, hes a really awesome person. of course i dont let him know that, wouldnt want his head to grow any bigger than it already is.
at the moment im reading Anne Frank. and oh my gosh, its really amazing. im about a third of the way through and i really would recommend reading it, if you havent already done so.
current song im listing too (and obsessed with) , this aint a love song - scouting for girls. its lovely. but i know i will listen to it too much and end up hating it. dont you find that happens? when you listen to a song over and over again that you absolutely love, and you just end up hating it.. or just not listening to it at all. strange that? :S
so im planning my first tattoo, ever. and i really dont know what to go for..? or even where to put it..? when i was a couple of years younger than i am now i really wanted a barcode on my wrist.. oh what was i thinking, even though in my own head i still think it would be really cool to have that done. even if it is somewhere that cant be seen. as i dont want anything on my arms now. well i do, but parents have made me think its a bad idea because of jobs yada yada.
ohh yeah, how annoyed was i when i discovered that a new dvd that i bought a couple of days ago wouldnt play in my dvd player :@ oh and stupid me for not keeping the receipt :(
anyhow, enough for tonight. tired fingers. from typing. yeah.





OH BLOG UPDATE.
my laptop is fucked. cry.

why is it when ive wrote it i remember so many more things that were supposed too go in.
it was really sunny today and this made sooo happy. dont you just have those days where the weather just makes or breaks your day.

unspoken.

its starting not to bother me now when i dont speak to him.. like what was all the fuss about? short & sweet.

bank holiday.

i cant be bothered to add stuff to the blog i written yesterday. but i will carry on trying to write a blog every day. just to keep anyone who reads this informed. today has been a good day, had a pretty good time at work. it was so boring though because it was bank holiday hardly anyone came in which meant that i had 6 hours of doing nothing practically. done.

everything thats on my mind.

so some geek today told me not to think about what to write and just write what comes into my head so here goes.
-i have amazing friends. gemma, she is like my rock and i love her. i dont think i would be able to go a day without speaking to her. we are like two peas in a pod, joined at the hip. i met her at college. and shes awesome.
of course i have many other friends too, but none are like her. shes my jesus.
-i like him. you dont and never will know who he is, but its weird. like i would of never of thought it would of come to this but it kinda just happened. they say you cant help who you like/love (i dont love him) but thats really true. and it happens at the most worse, awkward and silly times. but as i like to say.. if life was easy, would love be boring? i think it would.
-college. i like it, only because i have great friends.
-family. this could be a long one. i didnt have a bad childhood. but as a result of what happened when i was a young baby, me and my father dont really have a relationship that a daughter and father should have. this makes me sad sometimes because i see other people with their fathers and i think to myself.. why cant my life be like that. but i suppose we all have different problems in our life. well, none of us are perfect after all. none.
i might add to this a little later because i really cba to type right now :)

i cant think, i cant write.

boom.
i dont have anything to say today.
why?
because.. nothing exciting happened. apart from meeting with mates.
night.

rehab.

happy easter weekend.
:)
im working most of the weekend, but ive had a pretty good few days at work. so im a happy bunny. and its sunday tomorrow so no working. but i am working bank holiday monday, which kinda sucks but everyone just keeps saying to me "think of the money" which i am lol.
okay, i admit it. didnt think about him much today. and i know i said i wouldnt mention him here anymore. but i dont know where else to really express myself. and im not 12 so i diary wouldnt be much help. so thanks blogger, you stop me from going insane.

angry angry.

dont you just hate it when some fucking (excuse my language) people dont even try and understand you. like when they just seem to get a kick out of pointing out all your faults when they think they are perfect themselves. well there're wrong, they have faults and plenty of them. its about time they climb out of there own butts and really get a grip. for fuck sake. my day has gone from good to bad to shit. and now i have a headache. crap.